Someone said to me, I'm just stating the facts. I agree with that, but you are stating them over and over and over again. Your subconscious does not know the difference between what has been in the past and what will be in the future. Your subconscious deals in the now . When you say "I used to have ................., you fill in the blank, all your subconscious hears is I have ......... If you say it often enough, guess what the outcome is?
I'm as guilty of this as you are, so I'm working on myself all of the time. Sometimes I don't even realize what kind of damage I'm doing to me. It takes lots of practice to change what we've been thinking and subsequently doing to ourselves and it all starts with awareness.
I can help you get started. All you have to do is ask me and I'll be glad to show you some ways to do it. Have a great day and call me if you would like my help.